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07 April 2016 @ 09:23 am
Week 6, Thursday  
Weigh in Thursday made me happy once again: 202. Today I have 4 hours of training at work then returning my car to Enterprise and maybe some other errands. The last two days I've gotten into the bad habit of trying to stay awake by drinking half a Coke real fast. I keep getting sleepy at 6pm. I guess I should go with it. My body used to do a similar thing when Chris worked at Memphis Pizza Cafe and I worked at Sephora. I'd go to his place, take a nap, wake up for a couple of hours to hang out with him, then fall back asleep.

Chris and I need to get our schedules in order or else my sleeping schedule will be insane.

Anyway, focus today is arm work outs and core exercises. I've grown to really like my belly but my core strength is shit.

Weight: 202

Edit: Did some obsessive calculating. I've gained exactly 30 lbs in 3 years in between posts. I've gained 46 lbs in all between 2010-2016. And I've lost 10 lbs in 6 months. My highest weight was 212 on October 11th, 2015. This info was all figured out between my Health app, my Argus app, and this journal. My lowest recorded was 164.5 on October 5th, 2010.

I don't know. I'm happy that I'm 202. And I'm close to getting into the 190's again. But what is going to make me keep losing weight? The evidence is damning that I fluctuate a lot and gain very easily and give up just as easily. Hopefully I can keep losing weight in a steady way or else I will most likely give up and gain 10 lbs again. I'm scared that I'll be 250 or 300 in the next few years if I don't lose this weight now.